ISO

I find myself pondering what it is that I lost so long ago. I know that there is something I lost. But for the life of me I cannot either remember or find what it is that I lost. I know I lost it and when I did I lost a great deal more than just that thing that I lost. I know I lost my sense of worth and my sense of self I know I misplaced some of my mind and feelings that I had felt. there was something that meant a great deal to me. Something more powerful than the kuiper belt. Although it feels at times like that may be where my lost item is at. Far away, unobtainable, distant. I feel as though I am a jig saw puzzle that is missing that one last piece to give it completion. That lack of wholeness is nothing less than mind wracking. I feel as though I aimlessly search but I do not know for what I search.